sad!wolf

Sword of Damocles

I'm not sure how much more of this I can take. Fucking kids at work think that because they're black they don't have to come in, leaving that much extra work on those of us that do come in. Only med that's currently doing even anything of use is the migraine one. And as much as I love letting the cats the freedom to be in my room, I'd prefer if it didn't mean coming home to find a new loaf of bread half eaten through the bag because I didn't want to squish it in the fridge with the milk and juice. Or the clean sheet I put on the bed last night covered in butt mucus and piss from the one who hasn't cleaned herself up yet 2 days after delivering a still litter. The best part? I SHUT THE FUCKING DOOR WHEN I FUCKING LEFT TO GO THE FUCK TO FUCKING WORK!!!! I just can't continue like this. Added 5 and it only eased by maybe 1. I haven't felt content, let alone happy, or wanted / included in this house in a long time. If I thought I could get out I would, but I doubt it's ever going to happen.
HogwartsBother

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Why do I continue to try? With anything. I go to work, take my meds, and the first little mistake I make has me beating myself across the face and ready to commit suicide. I come home and am ignored unless something is going wrong. Apparently there are ants in the laundry room, and because my room/garage is right next to it and I'm too apathetic to clean they're my fault. Well, cleared all of the trash from where the food would have been, just some papers left in rest of room, no fucking ants. Big surprise. I'm the only one that wants to keep the cats here and alive, yet they are threatened with death if they want to come chill in my room because Kody is a fucking asshole. I hate this place. I have no idea the last time anyone else in this house even made me smile, let alone made me feel like I was worth more than the dirt on the bottom of their shoes. Kris and Trudy are no better at this point. The only thing either of them, especially Kris, will talk about when in the same room as me is the fucking car insurance. I'm aware that the car needs to be insured. It is through the bank, and for less than anything I'd be able to find right now with the fucking suspension. No matter how many times I tell him, he still hounds me about it. But no, once again nothing I do is good enough for him. Or for anyone else. And once again a coworker stood my worthless ass up regarding a kitten. Fucking Mariah claimed to want Noggy, said she would text me tonight after work to come get him. Surprise surprise, no text, no Mariah. I fucking give up.
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    Bleed It Out - Linkin Park
HogwartsBother

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Why is it that every time I talk to my father he shoots flaming arrows at the center of my depression, then gets mad at me for having the audacity to react instead of ignoring it? Heaven forbid I ever actually let him know that, if it's not face-to-face, I usually end up crying and forcing myself not to reach for sharp objects.

HogwartsBother

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Why is it that I continuously put myself in situations that I know will cause me pain? I know I tend to feel more useless when at my parents' house for more than a couple hours, yet I come here a couple days a week anyway. Hell, I get this feeling at home sometimes, but not as bad as here at Mom and Dad's. Self-hatred and tears, maybe I can finally get to sleep.

HogwartsBother

Opinions needed please!

A few years ago, I finished these blackwork Japanese geisha and samurai. I've been backlogged on projects for other people since then, and am now deciding if I want to find something to put between them for framing, or just do the two of them together. Opinions and suggestions please!
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    Devil's Skirt - Blue Gillespie
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Music Meme - Shinjou (Last)

Taken from Xennie-b' dreamwidth

Put your iPod/mp3 player/iTunes/music player of choice on Shuffle mode.

For each question, press the 'Next' button to get your answer.

You MUST write the song name down that comes up, no matter how silly it sounds as an answer to the question or how embarrassing it is.

IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY" YOU SAY:
Kenran

WHAT WOULD BEST DESCRIBE YOUR PERSONALITY?
Oh My My

WHAT DO YOU LIKE IN THE OPPOSITE/SAME SEX?
Because of You

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Dream a Little Dream of Me

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Ladies' Aid Society

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
We Three Kings

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Circle Sky

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT VERY OFTEN?
Jack and Diane

WHAT IS 2+2?
Wonderwall

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND?
Throw Yourself Away

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Believe It or Not

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
Rain

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
I Believe in Father Christmas

WHAT DO YOU THINK WHEN YOU SEE THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
O Come All Ye Faithful/O Holy Night

WHAT WILL YOU DANCE TO AT YOUR WEDDING?
On My Own

WHAT WILL THEY PLAY AT YOUR FUNERAL?
Scent of Silence

WHAT IS YOUR HOBBY/INTEREST?
Fire in the Sky

WHAT IS YOUR BIGGEST SECRET?
He Lives in You

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR FRIENDS?
Every Rose Has It's Thorn

WHAT'S THE WORST THING THAT COULD HAPPEN?
Sing With Joy/Joyfully Sing

HOW WILL YOU DIE?
Kimiya Hohoemu Nara (If You Smile)

WHAT IS THE ONE THING YOU REGRET?
Especially in Michigan

WHAT MAKES YOU LAUGH?
Something in the Air

WHAT MAKES YOU CRY?
Gollum's Song

WILL YOU EVER GET MARRIED?
The Dementors Converge

WHAT SCARES YOU THE MOST?
Love Changes Everything

DOES ANYONE LIKE YOU?
Love in an Elevator

IF YOU COULD GO BACK IN TIME, WHAT WOULD YOU CHANGE?
Get It Up

WHAT HURTS RIGHT NOW?
The Ghosts of Christmas Eve

WHAT WILL YOU POST THIS AS?
Shinjou (Last)
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    Techno Syndrome 7 - The Immortals
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sad!wolf

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Sarah Jane Smith
Sarah Jane Smith
Take Which Doctor Who companion are you? (girls) today!
Created with Rum and Monkey's Personality Test Generator.</p>
You're Sarah Jane Smith!

The intrepid girl reporter, you invented spunky. You never rest in your relentless pursuit of what The People (and you) Want to Know, and have a profound sense of justice. You are cheerfully incapable of following orders, and have a very individualistic sense of style--much like the Doctor himself. It's no wonder you two get on so well, even if his absentmindedness makes him a bit of a handful sometimes.
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    Dead Space Trailer
NoPants

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You were born during a New moon

The moon is dark in this phase, because the half that's illuminated by the sun is facing away from Earth.





- what it says about you -


You want to leave an impression on people and make your mark on the world. When you love an idea, you'll work hard for it, sometimes even dropping whatever it is you're doing to go on to the next new great thing that's captured your imagination. The more freedom you have to chose what you're doing, the busier you'll be.

What phase was the moon at on your birthday? Find out at Spacefem.com

  • Current Music
    Circle Sky (Head Live Version) - The Monkees
sad!wolf

meme from Lovingyouin1963

+What song are you currently addicted to?
Thanks to the playing (by all of us lol) of Kingdom Hearts, I constantly have This Is Halloween from Nightmare Before Christmas stuck in my head, so anything from that gets overplayed when I find it. Also any of the songs that are in AMV Hell get stuck quite easily. Yes, I am a dork lol.

+What's your favorite season?
Spring or winter.

+What’s the latest movie you watched?
Most recent was probably Iron Man 2 or New Moon. Last watched was either Chicago, Princess and the Frog or Head. Yes, that last one is The Monkees movie lol.

+What is the one skill you wish you had?
Being able to walk into anywhere I wanted and walk out with a job lol. Being able to repair small appliances/electronics so I don't have to do everything by hand :-P

+What’s your current fandom/obsession/addiction?
Harry Potter, Naruto, FMA, Kingdom Hearts, Otherland (Tad Williams). Still occasionally dip into the old favorites Daria, Quantum Leap and the Monkees.

+Favourite time of day?
Night

+What web sites do you always visit when you go online?
E-mail (Yahoo then Gmail), LiveJournal, Facebook, whichever fic I'm currently reading, Vampires on MySpace (only reason I still get on there lol), Zenkaicon to check for new guests, Dragon Cave (I know, I’m a dork)

+What was the last thing you bought?
Little hoop earrings for my cartilages for $13.

+If you won 10,000 bucks today, what would you do with it?
Make sure my car is legal so I don't lose my vanity plate then get a new car.

+What is your fondest memory?
Laying on the hill at camp watching the stars and just chilling with friends. Seeing the twins grow.

+What's the last thing that made you happy?
Finding a fic I couldn't remember the name of. Now if I could just find the rest of those lol.

+Do you want to learn another language?
Sure, the more the merrier. At this point, I just want to become fluent in the several I’ve already started to learn!

+Five things you can’t live without.
Books, laptop/internet, food, music, crafts lol

I won't tag anyone in particular, but I'd like to see a few of you do this if you can :-)
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    You Okay Honey? from Rent
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